Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Baby #3!!

CALM DOWN! No baby number three is NOT on his/her way, has NOT been conceived, and is NOT trying to be conceived! :)

Just thoughtI would write a post about this baby who isn't even in the making yet. Since Camden has turned one, it seems everyone is asking when we will try again! I always laugh inside when people say that. I too am guilty of asking when a couple will "try again", but isn't the phrase "try again" funny! It sounds like you might not have got it right the first time, so you need to "TRY AGAIN!"

Well as for Mr. and Mrs. Godwin(us), we have a plan. Plans don't always go as expected, but I really am hoping and praying ours does! As most know, I am a full time student. I still have about 2 years left of school before I am an OFFICIAL R.N. and that needs to be FULLY accomplished before baby number three is even an option. I am expected to graduate Summer of 2011 and hopefully will be placed into a job immediately! I have thought long and hard about when I would like baby number three to be born and I really want a October or November baby! That means I would have to conceive January/February and that would work out very nicely because that will be about 4 or 5 months after I have graduated and I will hopefully be into a very nice career by then! So, if all goes according to plan baby number three will be conceived hopefully early in 2012. Carson will be 5 and Camden will be about 3 and 1/2 and that sounds like a GREAT time to bring in a new addition! It doesn't hurt that they will both be in school when baby number 3 makes their arrival either! :)

I totally understand that my life is ALREADY planned out by someone else. God knows every detail that will unfold in front of me even before it happens and I am just merely here to follow the path he has for me. God and I have been doing lots of talking lately though and I know he knows the desires of my heart! He knows my heart longs for more children but he also knows I have dreams I am chasing and pursuing too. :)

Friday, July 24, 2009

Yup, Im going to be a bear!

Ok So I don't believe in next lives..I know I will spend eternity in Heaven once I am gone off this earth. If I DID believe in next lives though, I would come back as a bear...Want to know why? Well here you go!......

In my next life I want to be a bear.

If you're a bear, you get to hibernate. You do nothing but sleep for six months.

I could deal with that.

Before you hibernate, you're supposed to eat yourself stupid.

I could deal with that, too.

If you're a bear, you birth your children (who are the size of walnuts) while you're sleeping and wake to partially grown, cute cuddly cubs.

I could definitely deal with that.

If you're a mama bear, everyone knows you mean business. You swat anyone who bothers your cubs. If your cubs get out of line, you swat them too.

I could deal with that.

If you're a bear, your mate EXPECTS you to wake up growling. He EXPECTS that you will have hairy legs and excess body fat. He KNOWS not to get between you and the food.

Yup..... Gonna be a bear.

Monday, July 20, 2009

A few good points

So since I have posted in a while, this one could be completely random because I want to write about a few things!!

Thing 1- Camden is OFFICIALLY a one year old! His party was such a blast! Before Camden was born his theme was already deemed frogs. It started when I found this bedding by Lambs and Ivy called Froggy Tales seen HERE: and I fell in LOVE with it. Until he was born I found FROGGY things all over the place and couldn't stop myself from buying them. Even his first outfits he ever wore were frog decorated. Including a very sweet sleeper that I still can't seem to make myself get rid of seen here: Anyways, so it only seemed right to have a froggy first birthday. At first I was disappointed because I couldn't seem to find the perfect frog party stuff anywhere. I searched and searched until at last...I FOUND IT! His party turned out perfect and here are the pictures of proof....

So what should I note about Cam at a year old"
* Well he is weighing a WHOPPING 26lbs and 6ozs and is 31 and 3/4 inches tall(90% for his height and weight) He is a big guy and you would think after carrying him around for months I would have arms of steel-NOT SO MUCH :) Carson calls him BUBBA and its actually fitting because he is...and my mom likes to call him BRUISER which is truly fitting too! :)

*He is walking fairly decent now! He still stumbles and chooses to crawl some of the time but I would consider him a walker.

*He EATS and EATS and EATS! If there is food around....he's eating it. Guess that makes since for a growing boy! I was a little concerned with his eating and weight but his Dr. assured me that he is perfectly healthy and that since his height and his weigh are BOTH measuring in sync with each other than he is actually perfectly proportioned!

*He is SILLY, SILLY, SILLY and I love him

Thing 2- School is so CRAZY this quarter. I am taking three pretty intense classes and add being a mother and wife on top of that and you get CHAOS! Unlike working a job which you typically work during the week and get weekends off, school you still are working all weekend on homework! Sometimes I think each teacher assumes you only have THEIR class to worry about. They load on PILES of homework as if you have nothing else to do but concentrate on their class, maybe they didn't get the memo about all the other classes I am taking too! Thank goodness quarters are only 10 weeks and I am already on week 3! COME ON WEEK 10 :)

Thing 3- Carson is SOMEWHAT potty training. I never imagined how hard this would be, and sometimes I just have to remind myself I am learning too. Carson is my FIRST born and as much as I hate to admit it, my TRAIL AND ERROR child. I can only do the best I know how to with him and I am sure with Camden I will have pitched out all the bad things that didn't work with Carson and have a refined game plan. Basically we aren't hard core PUSHING the potty thing. I have realized that doesn't work at all with Carson and letting him want to do it is the only way. He tells me he needs to go and does, but it isn't consistent. Some days he will tell me twice and some days none. His school is working with him too which helps, but I just wish it would become a constant thing already. Maybe some of you are appalled that I have a 2 and 1/2 year old not potty trained, but I am just doing the best I can do here.

Thing 5- Just wanted to briefly comment on the JON and Kate matter. I have to wonder what Jon's kids are thinking about his new g/f! I can't help but wonder if he has explained it to them or if they are just having to hear it 3rd hand from the media? I am not one to judge, but she doesn't seem like ANYONE I would want step parenting my children. Thankfully I don't ever see myself in that situation. I truly am sorry this family fell apart. :(

Well I think I have touched on enough for today don't you!

Friday, July 10, 2009

MY Own Miracle

A year ago today, I was getting hooked up to monitors, and preparing to be induced and meet someone who didn't really seem real to me yet. I remember having so many emotions pouring through me. Half of me could hardly hold back the tears thinking that Carson would no longer be our ONLY son, and how he may hate us for bringing someone else in and taking away his spotlight. Yes, I know some of you may be thinking these are weird thoughts, but this is actually true honesty here, and these were really my raw emotions. The other half of me had already grown attached to this person inside me, and although I had no idea what he would look like, I pictured holding this tiny little guy and it just feeling RIGHT.

My labor zoomed by fast that day. I got there at 8a.m, close to 4 cms dilated and 80% effaced, and by 2o'clock,after having my water broken and an epidural, I was already feeling the urge to push. I pushed with everything I had, and I made great progress. At 2:51p.m Camden emerged with his tiny hand right by his face! I will never forget the first time I saw him, It was without a doubt LOVE. I took one look at his face, and the tears just came like a summer rain. I just held him and bawled, and it was then I knew the true meaning of unconditional love. Not even really KNOWING this little boy, I loved him unconditionally and forever.

I still felt I was missing someones seal of approval. Later that day I got it. Seeing Carson meet Camden for the first time was so amazing. He walked into the room with my mom and sister and they said "OK there he is" and Carson without any hesitation, marched right over to him and said "MY BABY!" then proceeded to give him a kiss on his little dark haired head. All my fears were washed away. It was if Carson had known all along this baby was coming and that he was HIS. To this day Carson still tells people Camden is "HIS BABY BUBBA!"

The months have flown by since then. We had some tough times with his horrible reflux, and non-antibiotic responding ears, but you know what I wouldn't trade for anything in this WORLD! Camden came into this family,and fit just like a perfect piece to the puzzle. God doesn't make mistakes with timing. I can remember before he was born thinking it was too soon for Carson not to be the baby anymore, but now I realize I have given Carson so much more than I ever could have imagined. I have give him his BEST FRIEND. Ask anyone who sees them together and you will know that couldn't be more true. They have a special brotherly bond that makes my heart smile!

Camden you are SO loved. Anyone who meets you falls in love with your silly little personality and that contagious smile! I have only known you for a year,but you are truly one of the loves of my life, and I could never picture my world without you in it! I cannot wait to watch you continue to grow and thrive. Thank you God for making Camden MY BABY :).

oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAMDEN RAY GODWIN, My sweet little bear